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Saturday, July 29, 2006
hello.
typed out 3 paragraphs of what happened yesterday and i accidentally deleted it. no chance of getting it back so i shall just ignore it and continue.
first of all a quick shout to everyone:
festival of praise 2006. singapore indoor stadium.
4 august- 7pm 5&6 august- 730pm
speaker: ed silvoso.
worship: don moen. ccc [city christian church] band.
please go if you can make it, because from past experiences, the worship atmosphere is great. and do invite friends who have yet to believe in the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. i'll most probably be going on friday and saturday with youth.
planet shakers concert 2006 ultraviolet. the max pavillion, singapore expo.
11&12 august 730-1030.
tickets: 4 bucks.
worship: needless to say, planet shakers.
once again, go if you can! because there's absolutely no reason you shouldnt. experience God and feel His prescence. i wont be able to make it because im going to taiwan, rawr, sorry youth. but if you want to go and dont know where to get tickets, you can sms me at 81487023 [if you dont already know] and i'll get it for you. yupp.
you wont regret your decision.
papa
there was one time we went for recess/ lunch early and i was talking to jan about my dad and vice versa. and i realised how much my daddy loves me. im not a rich kid, though i am definitely from an above above average family, when i have so much more than i need. he's been with his company since it first started and i remember i once asked him when i was young "papa since you're the director why do you work so hard?" and he replied "see because im the director, that's why i have a greater responsibility." or something along that line. doing things that's not required, that's my daddy. i can name 3 things [and even more] right away to show how much he loves me.
1. holidays. my sister wants me to go to japan with her after my eoys, and when she told daddy he just said "okay, but make sure peiling doesnt have anything during that time." and later on he suggested "or do you want to visit switzerland [because ive always wanted to go there]?" i told him no straightaway, because he has simply been spending too much money on us. he brings us out to those really nice places to eat and lets us go on holidays [without him] while he stays in singapore and slogs his guts out and buys lunches that cost 2 bucks. that's the reason why although ive been wanting to go out and buy stuff, ive not done so.
2. geog pt. screwed up the format on microsoftword and he waited until 1045 for me, and it took me ages to get him to come back first because he hadnt had dinner. he had barely enough sleep [and i was using the comp in the room, so he couldnt sleep well] because he slept rather late and woke up like around 5 to bring me to his office to print the hilda taba [the horridness of having to print a3 stuff] and once he wakes up it's hard for him to get back to sleep.
3. he knows there's a problem with my spiritual life so after sending me to school and reaching his office, he makes it a point to send me a verse from the Bible to encourage me.
daddy's actually a rather quiet person. a man of few words. but actions speak louder than words. and i cant believe that despite his simple actions which scream "i love you" ive been taking this for granted all the while and am such a horrid daughter. sometimes i really think i rock so much.
but daddy, if you ever see this [though i doubt you will because you respect my privacy], im sorry for all the times ive yelled at you "what's your problem?" "it's got nothing to with you" "leave me alone" and for those sarcastic and snide remarks and what not. thankyou for working so hard to support us and giving me more than i need and just being my papa. i think the last time i told you this was when i was very young, somehow when i get older, it gets harder to say some things. but i just want you to know that i love you papa, i do. hopefully i'll be able to tell you this someday.
some things just dont come out right.
simplicity.
*****
as requested by the current owner of my old number, i shall make an announcement:
peiling's current number: 81487023
i was having breakfast at yakun [without my brother, he went for some debate thing] and received a call from weixiang. he called my old number because he claimed that i didnt tell him about me changing my number. BUT i am very sure i did, and ive smsed him before. right. he told me the conversation he had with the current owner.
weixiang: hello are you going for army daze today?
person: [with some weird accent- he thinks it's indian] what are you talking about?
weixiang: eh not bad arh peiling, youve mastered the accent and the low voice.
person: master what accent? i dont speak with accent. im ___ [forgot his name]
weixiang: ng pei ling! seriously, are you going today?
person: wrong number la. tell your friend to tell people he [!!!] changed his number [this guy has wonderful english]
weixiang: answer my question first la!
person: [grunts and ends the call]
people have told me that some weird guy answers my old number, but this, is the first time. weixiang amazes me sometimes. xp
pointless post but it's only when it's pointless will i not be incoherent.
give me pieces, give me things to stay awake.
simplicity.
*****
hello.
typed out 3 paragraphs of what happened yesterday and i accidentally deleted it. no chance of getting it back so i shall just ignore it and continue.
papa
there was one time we went for recess/ lunch early and i was talking to jan about my dad and vice versa. and i realised how much my daddy loves me. im not a rich kid, though i am definitely from an above above average family, when i have so much more than i need. he's been with his company since it first started and i remember i once asked him when i was young "papa since you're the director why do you work so hard?" and he replied "see because im the director, that's why i have a greater responsibility." or something along that line. doing things that's not required, that's my daddy. i can name 3 things [and even more] right away to show how much he loves me.
1. holidays. my sister wants me to go to japan with her after my eoys, and when she told daddy he just said "okay, but make sure peiling doesnt have anything during that time." and later on he suggested "or do you want to visit switzerland [because ive always wanted to go there]?" i told him no straightaway, because he has simply been spending too much money on us. he brings us out to those really nice places to eat and lets us go on holidays [without him] while he stays in singapore and slogs his guts out and buys lunches that cost 2 bucks. that's the reason why although ive been wanting to go out and buy stuff, ive not done so.
2. geog pt. screwed up the format on microsoftword and he waited until 1045 for me, and it took me ages to get him to come back first because he hadnt had dinner. he had barely enough sleep [and i was using the comp in the room, so he couldnt sleep well] because he slept rather late and woke up like around 5 to bring me to his office to print the hilda taba [the horridness of having to print a3 stuff] and once he wakes up it's hard for him to get back to sleep.
3. he knows there's a problem with my spiritual life so after sending me to school and reaching his office, he makes it a point to send me a verse from the Bible to encourage me.
daddy's actually a rather quiet person. a man of few words. but actions speak louder than words. and i cant believe that despite his simple actions which scream "i love you" ive been taking this for granted all the while and am such a horrid daughter. sometimes i really think i rock so much.
but daddy, if you ever see this [though i doubt you will because you respect my privacy], im sorry for all the times ive yelled at you "what's your problem?" "it's got nothing to with you" "leave me alone" and for those sarcastic and snide remarks and what not. thankyou for working so hard to support us and giving me more than i need and just being my papa. i think the last time i told you this was when i was very young, somehow when i get older, it gets harder to say some things. but i just want you to know that i love you papa, i do. hopefully i'll be able to tell you this someday.
some things just dont come out right.
simplicity.
*****
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
virtual reality.
you've only got...
that limited amount of time.
that few resources.
that number of lives.
cant manage it?
lose it?
game over.
you either start all over again from scratch.
or you just close it all off and admit defeat.
as simple as that.
harsh but true.
simplicity.
*****
Friday, July 21, 2006
taylor hicks- do i make you proud
ive never been
the one to raise my hand
that was not me
and now that's who i am
because of you
i am standing tall
my heart is full of endless gratitude
you were the one
the one to guide me through
now i can see and i believe
it's only just the beginning
this is what we dream about
but the only question with me now
is do i make you proud
stronger than ive ever been now
never been afraid of standing out
do i make you proud
i guess ive learned
to question is to grow
that you still have faith
is all i need to know
ive learned to love myself
in spite of me
and ive learned to
walk on the road i believe
everybody needs to rise up
everybody needs to be loved
to be loved
do i make you proud.
do i make you proud.
simplicity.
*****
Friday, July 07, 2006
i have discovered my love, well maybe not love but my liking for my blog. it's almost a personal blog because few people actually bother reading it. especially with my long hiatus, so perhaps going on a hiatus was a good choice.
it's time for a journey back in time.
gb on monday was great. rededication. shirim has been troubling me, even before june camp, though with june camp there was a greater sense of urgency as to whether im staying, or im not. and ive been praying about it, whether i should continue shirim, since my coordination for piping is simply horrible and i dont know my purpose for staying in shirim [actually even till now, i dont know what my purpose is. but i'll discover it eventually i suppose]. and my decision was made on monday. im staying. although im not going to be playing for gbday [i was moping over it while talking to waiian actually but after that i decided that], i shall practice hard and next year hopefully i will play the pipes. yes, i'll go for shirim because i want to, not because i have to. i was quite pleased with my decision because the thought of quitting/ponning shirim never crossed my mind. i must do as i say. gambatte (: i hope this wont be a short-lived thing and i start to regret my decision. but a commitment is a commitment is it not?
backtrack till saturday. met at siyings house in the morning for acp and when i reached, she and jan were working on her lj skin [which pokes fun at the world cup and so i rawr at her]. it was productive and we managed to film everything. and i bought like 4 jack and jill chips because i wanted to get either england/ spain/ germany's shirt thing. ended up getting argentina, netherlands, ghana and one more which i have forgotten [just shows how insignificant it is]. gave siying the ghana one and the other one which i cant remember, since she loves ghana to bits lol. went for chinese pt meeting at sufen's house. was wowing at her manga collection. and she scares me okay, she has almost everything done, and made me feel like a complete slacker. oh well. she's sufen. im peiling.
then comes the interesting part. went out with the guys after ymeeting. we were at orchard mrt on our way back and i was just talking to brandon while the rest were in front of us. and tada. this was what happened.
[some woman walks up]
woman to brandon: hey, im from ___ [i forgot the name] modelling agency. we're looking from part-time male models. can you give me your contact number?
[brandon looks around, bewildered and i try not to laugh]
brandon: uh no thanks. [looks at me] i think we're in a hurry, yeah.
woman: you can just leave your contact number and we'll get back to you.
brandon: thanks for your offer but really no.
woman: come on, im sure your girlfriend wont mind, right? [she looks at me]
[we are shocked and i am thoroughly amused. char and the others start laughing]
me: uh im just his friend. and nope of course i dont mind, i can give you his number if you want. [takes out my phone]
woman: well, if that's the case, okay, thanks.
brandon: no way, you're not going to do that.
[he pleads with me and i, being every so nice decided to help him.]
me: [uses this irritating tone] no actually i do mind. of course. sorry we really need to go.
[we walk off and i burst out laughing. and the rest start being irritating.]
it was entertaining. his expressions were classic. and to quote huiwen, "you're too polite. when people approach you just walk away la!" and during dinner we prankcalled him using mars temporary phone and pretended to be the modelling agency woman.
"uh yeah, im brandon. why?" "what?!" "oh no, actually im not brandon. i think you've got the wrong number." his lying skills = zero.
rewind time all the way until camp/retreat june 2006. you can skip this whole part. it's for memory's sake actually. brief outline. handwritten some but my hand gets tired easily.
talks/ messages were awesome. i realised how brilliant pnick is as a speaker. he's charismatic and while injecting some humour into his messages, he makes sure you do not miss out on the key points. and he really brings up a lot of things that just makes you call "woah" because it hits the nail right on the head and everything you've been trying to supress just resurfaces. the questions he asked were simple and straightforward, and although i think all of us thought about those questions at one point in time, it struck hard this time round. the things he brought up, it was just woah. even for someone who was far away, my attention was not diverted.
accomodation. i think the huts were really cool! though because there was a shortage of huts even though we booked everything [thanks to gill's mum for managing to get us a huge discount], the yls ended up sleeping in the conference room and the camp comm had to share beds/ huts. but it was fun. though liwen kicked me. rawr.
games. haha sentosa is a great place to organise games. since it's a bigger area as compared to pasir ris or east coast and the beaches there are clean and nice. (: manmade beaches. and i still love the long suspension bridge which leads to the southernmost tip of SEA [and jumping down from it =D]. and water activites and land games were cool. recreation i/cs are ingenious.
make your move. the highlight of the whole camp i guess. we planned it over lunch and dinner. technically it's underground church with a twist. making your choice as to which is true/ false was difficult according to the others. apparently many were deceived by me because they thought i would never be the liar. big mistake. discernment. how one wrong move leads to another. and there are chances to get back on track, but it all depends on how much you're wiling to listen, and most importantly believe it. we had a rather complicated system and pattern which all of us followed. guess who thought of it? the ever so brilliant me. x)
worship. by far the best worship experience. many were touched. hands were raised. tears came. knees buckled. and most importantly, hearts were changed- the whole attitude and passion for Him can be seen from the marked difference during fellowship/ service or actually, in small ways [the way they speak, act etc]. the prescence of God could be felt, very strongly. and the flame that had died out over time was rekindled. it's time for revival. and all of us sensed it. it did hit me and i was touched, but i was blocking myself off.
talkingtoenails. thanks to you guys for being so enthusiastic and supportive etc. and most importantly, being such a fun-loving group. koi cracks corny jokes. but yeah sorry my lousy led qts and having to drag brandon over to take you guys for qt. wasnt in the right frame of mind. though i hope you guys learnt something from it. though thank goodness mars and ren passed us the qt materials like in february or something, so i was able to jot down some things. efficient people la.
camp comm. smile peiling club. ive so much to say i shall leave it till some other time. 5 words: you guys made camp complete. thanks so much.
i have a feeling i left out a lot of main points. i shall edit it, if i ever get down to it.
and ive left out quite a few key events. gbjunecamp. worshipminmeeting. comm meeting. and other interesting happenings.
oh and i got my braces yesterday. though drquake hasnt put the bottom one. thank goodness, if not the pain would have been worse. and yesterday i was still showing my sister how unpainful it was, and today it started to hurt. attempted to blow the pipes but was simply unable to grip the mouthpiece, and when i tried to bite it, it hurt like crazy and i'll have to stop playing halfway. but the pain should be gone by wednesday. so pipes, here i come to practice hard. (: seeing drquake again on august 18, though i have no idea what he's going to do then. but i love my dentist. he's so funny, and very nice. nice family dentist. he's been giving discounts to my family [sister- braces. mum- filling. operation and some others. all of us- scaling and polishing] but we've gone to him for >10 years.
and i cant believe i nearly forgot this: world cup! worldcup2006 germany was full of shocks. england, spain, germany. england, they just werent playing up-to-standard, though they deserved to win the match against portugal, penalties, again, rawr. [jen cried when england lost. diehard england fan la. and unclefred is so funny, calling up and saying "hey, are you guys alright?" after the match] spain, they have young players and loads of potential, so worldcup2010 and euro2008. germany, my newfound favourite, didnt expect them to get so far despite all the spectulations and stuff because i didnt believe them, but they're a great team. and podolski- best young player. klose- golden shoe.
i dont have scv so went over to jess/jons house to watch with some of the guys. had a lot of fun screaming and jumping on the sofas and throwing pillows at the television and playing cards during halftime etc. and most importantly enjoying the matches, even when i didnt like the teams. to quote jon "people who really love soccer for what it is will not bet, because it destroys the spirit of soccer". when channel5 [finally] showed the worldcup, they came over! hoho. worldcup2006 was awesome-mer with those crazy people.
i spent a couple of days typing this whole entry out because i didnt do it all at one go. a very brainless post since it's so peiling's day/week/month- orientated. but at this point in time, brainless posts are the easiest since they dont require anything at all.
seeya. (:
simplicity.
*****
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